He is just victorious

The Wonderful Cross

Chris Tomlin

When I survey the wondrous CrossOn which the Prince of Glory diedMy richest gain, I count but lossAnd pour contempt on all my prideSee from His head, His hands, His feetSorrow and love flow mingled downDid ever such love and sorrow meet?Or thorns compose, so rich a crownOh the wonderful Cross, oh the wonderful CrossBids me come and die and find that I may truly liveOh the wonderful Cross, oh the wonderful CrossAll who gather here by grace, draw near and bless Your nameWere the whole realm of nature mineThat were an offering far too smallLove so amazing, so divineDemands my soul, my life, my allOh the wonderful Cross, oh the wonderful CrossBids me come and die and find that I may truly liveOh the wonderful Cross, oh the wonderful CrossAll…


Today, Sunday, 2 April 2017
Minggu Pra-Paskah ke-5
I have been so lost, so far away from Him
I had no idea, no feelings about Pessach, Resurrection, Lent, Easter, whatever
The classical Judeo-Christianity holy days and rituals in Spring time
I thought I will deliberate miss these moments of reflecting faith this year
2017, the year I started my life here
Because everyone here don't care anyway, of God, of Divine intervention
of those ancient myths, they say, or flying spaghetti monster, whatever
Then today, in the morning
That devil called
I felt so wild, so bad, so rebellious, almost liberated, from Him, from His command, from his Words.
I followed the devil
I followed the weak flesh of mine
and tainted this Domingo day, this memorial of the VoskreseniyeAnd there, when some odds drive led me to the church at 4.55 pm
I followed.

At that very conjunction of D***n and Sy**** Rd.

When my feet stepped into the pavement for pedestrian

After getting off the tram

I think.. when the battle started to be swinging to His side

I stopped and thought..to follow T* to the left - and didn't go to church

Or to step to the right and go to church, and accepted the fact that I'm a sinner

Which perhaps can reconcile my sins with the Words

So I took the right step, which proved to be the RIGHT STEP

I thought it was a luck of me, a lottery of coincident

But I was wrong, it was not me

It was Him, always, all the time

I think hard now.... that I imagine the process behind the screen:

Screwtape and Wormwood on the training in Inferno

And their enemy, their very Enemy (in capital)

Were trying to look at me and bet

Or did some power struggle

To get me, by my fall and wrecked or by my standing up

And there

In that old ancient red brick church

Cold and dampened in this early autumn

Again

The battle is won by Him

Something was sent

I think from heaven, while I was there in church

So when I got home

All the messages I knew I would receive

To convince me to leave the Devil

Are received, right in front of my face

That was when I know

That moment

That Screwtape and Wormwood, had been defeated

That this is a loss for them

'Cause He wins once more from them

He is victorious and He shows me that

BLUNTLY

All evidence and proofs are provided

Without me asking

Right on the table

By some stupid mistakes of others

That put me in the corner

That I can run, but I can't hide from Him

Blessed be Thy name o Lord

Nothing compares to you

Like ancient Israel in the Bible

Who knew that God has helped them through thin and thick

But still looked for other idols

And made Him jealous and angry

I am like them

Not grateful, but betrayed Him

With my repeated sins

Then I got into this song, When I Survey the Wondrous Cross

Then I wept on these lines when they are sang:

 
Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all


Then I remember Screwtape and Wormwood
Poor guys
I'm sorry
It is your loss
I'm His, not yours

And then this from ODB today, which title is, ODDLY: Behind the Scenes

https://odb.org/2017/04/02/behind-the-scenes-5/

The Old Testament prophet Daniel also anxiously awaited a reply. After receiving a frightening vision of great war, Daniel fasted and sought God through humble prayer (10:3, 12). For three weeks, he received no reply (vv. 2, 13). Finally, an angel arrived and assured Daniel his prayers had been heard “since the first day.” In the meantime, the angel had been battling on behalf of those prayers. Though Daniel didn’t know it at first, God was at work during each of the twenty-one days that elapsed between his first prayer and the angel’s coming.


I can say no more. Speecheless. How great Thou art!