It's the day like today. Gloomy, with sounds of thunder, a bit showery and cool windy day. The Sun can't hardly be seen these days. The soil is wet all the time. It is quiet too. Oh, is it in Melbourne, or London's residential suburbs? No, it's in Jakarta! Yeah, the tropical city of Jakarta!
But this is January, one of the last days of the month actually, the peak of rainy season, affected by Iggy tropical cyclone that made those sounds of thunder and wind horrifying. But there some signs of tropical: the lush green leaves of rambutan trees and sort of any kind of trees during this season; the crowd of fruit sellers selling: rambutan, mangosteen, duku, durian and more of the tropical fruits (i love them all!) on the street less than a kilometer away from here.
The grass are even greener than during the typical days unlike these days. Yes, I got a feeling that it's winter. But the tropical signs are everywhere too. Should I just call it a winter's day in tropical style? Or a tropical winter? Just an idea. A rough idea.
*picture from okezone.com
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Count your blessings (and not others')!
Had a small talk -chat actually, with a friend the other day. Somehow, the chats went to the job and salary topic. Then come the comparison, on how friends of our 'generation' have reached the 'peak' of their career, or how some people are so lucky, getting there even faster than most of their cohort group. That was when we compared our lives with their lives, our salary to their salary, of how small ours is, mine in particular, which is only a half or even a third of most of my cohort have when they are in my age. Then it came to when I envied my friend she envied mine, -I described why I thought she's luckier and has more prestigious position and she described how I'm luckier and has more prestigious position. After the arguments went on, we realized that we did something funny: envy each other! Then came into a conclusion: people do tend to see others as more successful than they do, or have more money than they do, or luckier than them. We thought it over and we agreed that 'grass is always greeener in the other side' is indeed true. We desired what belongs to another, the definition of covet, it is.
Well, it's when I remember that it is exactly what God said, in the Ten Commandment, the 10th rule:
"thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's wife, nor his manservant, nor his
maidservant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor any thing that is thy neighbor's".
Then I started to roll over to review the days of my life. Have I ever been in need, deprived of anything material? Certainly not. My Lord God is the God that always provide me with His blessings sufficiently, or even abundantly. I've never been that rich, but I've never been that poor either. I've been able to lend money to those in crisis, able to give a hand to others in need, always afford to give my tithe and I've always lived in relatively good environment (again, not luxury, but not deprived certainly), and still have even more to travel around and hang out with friends. I rarely looked at myself as someone lacking money or blessings, when it comes to material or money. God has never never hold His blessings from me. When this thought came to my mind, I felt a bit guilty. Feeling guilty for looking at my friends whose salary is double or even triple my current salary (they are nice people I know, and I feel thankful for them too). Feeling guilty for looking at my friends whose career are brighter than mine. And for comparing their blessings with mine.
I suddenly thought, if I were God, I must be upset, and I will ask back to people like me:
a.) Have you ever been deprived materially, in your life?
b) Have you ever found it difficult to buy food?
c) Have you ever not been given shelter to put your head on to sleep at nights of your life?
d) Have you ever found it difficult to help those in need with your money?
If the answer is NO for all the questions, then, there simply supposed to be NO question at all about blessings. So, it's probably just the problem of envy. Envy is poisonous. And to cure my soul from the poison, there is one, among others, antidote: I was asked, to count my blessings (and not others'). And feel contented about it. And feel grateful about it.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Eden Restored
1 Then the angel showed me the
river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the
throne of God and of the Lamb 2
down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the
river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding
its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of
the nations. 3 No longer
will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in
the city, and his servants will serve him. 4 They will see his face, and his name will be
on their foreheads. 5
There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or
the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they
will reign for ever and ever.
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*The Bible Reading today: Revelation 22:1-5 - New International Version
(NIV)
The interpretation from Our Daily Bread: http://www.odb.org/
In a TV commercial I saw recently, the kids argued in the
back seat of the car about where to stop for dinner. One wanted pizza;
another chicken. Mom, in the front passenger seat, said, “No, we’ll stop
for a hamburger.”
Dad quickly solved the family disagreement with this idea: “We’ll stop at the buffet restaurant, and you can each have what you want and all you want.” The commercial closes with the words, “Take care of family squabbles about what’s for dinner. Go to _____ Buffet, the ‘Land of And.’”
When I saw that commercial, I thought of another “Land of And”: heaven. It is a place that will have all we need. Foremost, we will be in the very presence of Almighty God. In describing heaven, the apostle John said, “The throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it” (Rev. 22:3). Our thirsty souls will be completely satisfied from the “pure river of water of life” that proceeds from His throne (22:1), for He says to His people, “I will give . . . freely to him who thirsts” (21:6). Another “and” in this land will be the tree of life for “the healing of the nations” (22:2). What we won’t find in this Land of And are the curse (22:3), death, sorrow, and tears (21:4).
We’ll be completely satisfied in that Land of And. Are you ready to go?
Dad quickly solved the family disagreement with this idea: “We’ll stop at the buffet restaurant, and you can each have what you want and all you want.” The commercial closes with the words, “Take care of family squabbles about what’s for dinner. Go to _____ Buffet, the ‘Land of And.’”
When I saw that commercial, I thought of another “Land of And”: heaven. It is a place that will have all we need. Foremost, we will be in the very presence of Almighty God. In describing heaven, the apostle John said, “The throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it” (Rev. 22:3). Our thirsty souls will be completely satisfied from the “pure river of water of life” that proceeds from His throne (22:1), for He says to His people, “I will give . . . freely to him who thirsts” (21:6). Another “and” in this land will be the tree of life for “the healing of the nations” (22:2). What we won’t find in this Land of And are the curse (22:3), death, sorrow, and tears (21:4).
We’ll be completely satisfied in that Land of And. Are you ready to go?
There is a land of pure delight,
Where saints immortal reign;
Infinite day excludes the night,
And pleasures banish pain. —Watts
Where saints immortal reign;
Infinite day excludes the night,
And pleasures banish pain. —Watts
Earth—the land of trials; heaven—the
land of joys.
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My thought:
I think I was born with a DNA codes that lead my mind to believe that there is that faraway land, that I always feel like I miss it every time, a kind of unaddressed pain, which I believe it does truly exist, that somehow, some time, I will have the chance to see it, to live in it one day. That it is my real, genuine, original home. For every time I moved, I still felt like something is missing, that I don't really belong here or there, nor the place where I've been before, not the place that I stayed after. That I am, after all, just a small boat sails over the ocean; stopping by at a harbor to see the city, and then leaving to another city and moves on again and again, comma, until one day, I will meet the last ultimate harbor, where I throw the anchor, forever, in eternity full stop. The land of unknown. A kind of land behind the sea swallow curtain of Azlan's Kingdom in the Chronicles of Narnia (C.S. Lewis). There must be one last stop for all this travel in this profane Earth. That last stop is this Eden, the restored Eden, that the Bible passage talks about today. The land where people sing and praise the entire day and day (since there will be no nights no more), umm, I'm not even sure if time does exist there, because time measurement: the sun, the planets, the moon, will be no longer exist. Then forever it is, eternal it is, in that far faraway land.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Stuck, again
I'm in the middle of post-holiday syndrome. Yep, it's the work-blue syndrome. It means there are a lot of things to do but I chose to do something else that has no relation to it. Well well..bad habit..it comes again. My brain seems to refuse to work, for whatever reason I dont know. It just shut the door to the cortex close. I couldnt command it to open and do a simple analysis. I feel so stupid these days. I stared at the laptop screen and found nothing. Not any ideas spark out of my mind. They just conspired against me I guessss....*sigh*. Do I need more holiday? That's just too much, I've just had 2 weeks and want more? Is it what they called 'deterioration'? Hope not :(
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Today I don't feel like doing anything..a week after New Year's Day
Today is January 8, exactly a week after New Year's Day. I could not believe it's been a week already. See, last week I was in my hometown with Mom and family. I flew back on the 4th, met some girls from my hometown in the plane, have a big lunch with them in Jak, and met with my youngest brother in the nearby mall (where else you can meet but in shopping malls?). On the 5th, I tried hard to tune in with the work rhythm and failed I guess. I could only survive until 5.30, not a normal time for me actually. I was too sleepy and still contracting the 'holiday fever'. The next day was Friday already. I attended a meeting, which consequence was that I have to attend the follow up meeting the next day, which was Saturday. Perfect! Working in weekend during the new year's week! I could not believe it. I always thought that after returning from holiday, I could have some days for tuning in first. It was not the case, unfortunately. Well, that's life I guess. Maybe that way, I wouldn't have to pass weekend wondering what to do (oh, I knew that I would have a long sleep anyway!). The result of all this was, I woke up 10 am today, on Sunday. That paid off all these 'not supposedly work on weekend on the new year's week' hype. Bruno Mars' song came into my mind suddenly: The Lazy Song. Here's the lyrics (I also copied the link and put it on my FB wall, it's so relevant). And oh, I realized that it got 257 million hits on Youtube...gosh, that's something!! That's more than the entire Indonesian population altogether!! (conclusion: either there are as many lazy people in this world, or simply because the clip and the song is funny, I agree to both conclusions:)
Anyhow, enjoy!
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Lazy Song - Bruno Mars
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
I'm gonna kick my feet up then stare at the fan
Turn the TV on, throw my hand in my pants
Nobody's gon' tell me I can't
I'll be lounging on the couch just chilling in my Snuggie
Click to MTV so they can teach me how to dougie
'Cause in my castle I'm the freaking man
Oh yes, I said it, I said it
I said it 'cause I can
Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
Nothing at all, nothing at all
Tomorrow I'll wake up, do some P90X
Find a really nice girl, have some really nice sex
And she's gonna scream out
[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/bruno-mars-lyrics/the-lazy-song-lyrics.html]
This is great
(Oh my god, this is great)
Yeah, I might mess around
And get my college degree
I bet my old man will be so proud of me
But sorry pops, you'll just have to wait
Oh yes, I said it, I said it
I said it 'cause I can
Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
No, I ain't gonna comb my hair
'Cause I ain't going anywhere
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
I'll just strut in my birthday suit
And let everything hang loose
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh, today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
Nothing at all
Nothing at all
Nothing at all
Thursday, December 15, 2011
The suicide of a student activist and the wedding of a stupidity promoter's child
It has been quite a long talk these days in Indonesia. The suicidal action of Sondang Hutagalung, a student activist from UBK University in Jakarta has sparked debates whether or not it was a correct action to convey a protest message to this stupid, ignorant government with suicidal action (which is not a 'good' way to die according to most religious groups, alias prohibited: one would not go to heaven due to suicide). The other group looks more on the rationale why he burnt himself: a desperation about the country's human rights and poverty situation; and show their solidarity for him. Regardless of whether he will go to heaven or not, it is definitely none of our business (we, the livings). The Bible says that we need to care more on our life than about those who died, God will take care of them and their destiny, it's none of our business, He said.
To describe the situation in the country recently is like to untangle tangled cloths. Is like to walk into a labyrinth. All confusing, all connected, like the Enemy of the State, they probably are everywhere, the human rights violators, the corrupt officials, the conglomerates, the mafioso..and whatever or whoever they are, uniting to develop their own network of power, to prevent others to access their power and wealth...far far away from reality of common people's life. From grass root poverty. From the life of you and me, who have to fight everyday to make ends meet. These oligarchs have different definition of 'life'. Life, in essence, for them, is to store wealth, golds, money, obligations, investments, exactly like Jesus illustrated the rich greed man in a parable in the Bible two thousand years ago:
This exactly was the parable I recalled in my mind when I heard the story of a national conglomerate of I****** descendant, the owner of some biggest production houses in this country who celebrated the wedding of his child in Hawaii. He chartered jet(s) to fly the guests to Hawaii, whose accommodation were also paid by him. The television cinemas that he produced, all has no educational content, all are bullshits. In short, he sells junks and poisons to the lower class society in this country. He makes money of their ignorance. He even promotes stupidity and expect that people will stay stupid to want to voluntarily watch his stupid cinemas. And he produces money and wealth which reproduces and reproduces in bonds and properties and what other investments, only God knows. He might have spent millions of dollars for that party, to treat the rich people in glamorous ceremony. This guy, does one have a reason why he should alive? Has anyone ever told him that one day he might die and his wealth will not be of any use down in the graveyard? Has anyone told him the parable of the rich man in the Bible above? He could have donated 1/10 or even just 1 percent of his wealth to help those affected by flood and volcano eruption or building schools and hospitals in remote areas and help poor people there? How many lives he could have saved with his money, with his wealth? Or how about the corrupt officials who have more than five or ten luxurious cars and houses everywhere, their families live in luxurious lifestyle, with money they stole from public budget that supposed to go to build health centres for poor people? To build schools for poor children? How they made deals with the public officials, the attorneys, the police so that the latter would not inquire their corruptions?
After typing all this, I think I get a little clue why Sondang Hutagalung wanted to die. Because he felt hopeless and desperate that those kind of people will get caught and will get trialed, ever in this world, in this country. He might believe that if he dies, that might prompt more awareness of others to pressure the wealthy and the power controller. I hope he rest in peace, and I hope his cause will get more attention of the powerful people up there, and will get more sympathy from public to give pressure to this ignorant government and ignorant wealthy.
http://oase.kompas.com/read/2011/12/12/07404972/Sondang.Sang.Revolusioner.Telah.Pergi
To describe the situation in the country recently is like to untangle tangled cloths. Is like to walk into a labyrinth. All confusing, all connected, like the Enemy of the State, they probably are everywhere, the human rights violators, the corrupt officials, the conglomerates, the mafioso..and whatever or whoever they are, uniting to develop their own network of power, to prevent others to access their power and wealth...far far away from reality of common people's life. From grass root poverty. From the life of you and me, who have to fight everyday to make ends meet. These oligarchs have different definition of 'life'. Life, in essence, for them, is to store wealth, golds, money, obligations, investments, exactly like Jesus illustrated the rich greed man in a parable in the Bible two thousand years ago:
Luke 12:15-21 - New International Version (NIV)
15 Then he said to
them, “Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds
of greed; life does not consist in an abundance of possessions.”
16 And he told them this parable: “The ground of a certain rich man yielded an abundant harvest. 17 He thought to himself, ‘What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.’
18 “Then he said, ‘This is what I’ll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store my surplus grain. 19 And I’ll say to myself, “You have plenty of grain laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry.”’
20 “But God said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?’
21 “This is how it will be with whoever stores up things for themselves but is not rich toward God.”
16 And he told them this parable: “The ground of a certain rich man yielded an abundant harvest. 17 He thought to himself, ‘What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.’
18 “Then he said, ‘This is what I’ll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store my surplus grain. 19 And I’ll say to myself, “You have plenty of grain laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry.”’
20 “But God said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?’
21 “This is how it will be with whoever stores up things for themselves but is not rich toward God.”
This exactly was the parable I recalled in my mind when I heard the story of a national conglomerate of I****** descendant, the owner of some biggest production houses in this country who celebrated the wedding of his child in Hawaii. He chartered jet(s) to fly the guests to Hawaii, whose accommodation were also paid by him. The television cinemas that he produced, all has no educational content, all are bullshits. In short, he sells junks and poisons to the lower class society in this country. He makes money of their ignorance. He even promotes stupidity and expect that people will stay stupid to want to voluntarily watch his stupid cinemas. And he produces money and wealth which reproduces and reproduces in bonds and properties and what other investments, only God knows. He might have spent millions of dollars for that party, to treat the rich people in glamorous ceremony. This guy, does one have a reason why he should alive? Has anyone ever told him that one day he might die and his wealth will not be of any use down in the graveyard? Has anyone told him the parable of the rich man in the Bible above? He could have donated 1/10 or even just 1 percent of his wealth to help those affected by flood and volcano eruption or building schools and hospitals in remote areas and help poor people there? How many lives he could have saved with his money, with his wealth? Or how about the corrupt officials who have more than five or ten luxurious cars and houses everywhere, their families live in luxurious lifestyle, with money they stole from public budget that supposed to go to build health centres for poor people? To build schools for poor children? How they made deals with the public officials, the attorneys, the police so that the latter would not inquire their corruptions?
After typing all this, I think I get a little clue why Sondang Hutagalung wanted to die. Because he felt hopeless and desperate that those kind of people will get caught and will get trialed, ever in this world, in this country. He might believe that if he dies, that might prompt more awareness of others to pressure the wealthy and the power controller. I hope he rest in peace, and I hope his cause will get more attention of the powerful people up there, and will get more sympathy from public to give pressure to this ignorant government and ignorant wealthy.
http://oase.kompas.com/read/2011/12/12/07404972/Sondang.Sang.Revolusioner.Telah.Pergi
Monday, December 12, 2011
December, the fifth, two thousand and eleven
Two
thousand and eleven years Anno Domini. Today is our last working day in TL, to
undertake the capacity assessment as part of the consultancy job. It all went
well, I can simply say. In the morning we encountered the guy from the Bank
once more, after a long conversation yesterday, spanned from the topic of
nuclear physics to theism and atheism, from NASA’s artificial intelligent
project to reincarnation and religion; the difference between monotheistic and
non-monotheistic.
It was an
interesting talk, everyone left with their heads full of thought I suppose,
-including me. This morning we exchanged some small talks about weather and
cities in Indonesia and supporting capacity of the environment, over the
monotonous hotel breakfast. Five days in a row, -number of days we stayed
there, we have only three choices of breakfast: tropical fruits with yoghurt,
toast with number of spreads like butter, jams, marmalades and errr…. Vegemite,
and some cereals (all sweet, I regret) and some fruit juices. Well, cannot
complain more, but imagine the service one can get with US $80/night in
Indonesia, yes, that will include swimming pool!
Shortly
after that, our host organization in TL came and picked us up to shop for wine
and coffee, two most important commodities in there. The presentation went
well, everyone seemed to be all right with the findings. After question and
answer and feedback session, we bade everyone goodbye, signaling that we will
come again next year.
I recalled
that tonight I’ve gotta go to pharmacy to purchase Dio’s medicines. I forgot
whether I really prayed (or not) that morning, but what made this day special was
the way too many, too many indeed, coincidences and fortunate moments that I
encountered. I listed down some as follow:
1.
The
immigration asked me to put the bottle of wine that I carried to cabin on my
luggage. Could have been frustrating to find mine because they have strolled
the trolley on the lane to the plane, but strange enough, mine was on top of
piles of luggage, just like waiting for me to come. So it was easy to unzip my luggage
and put the bottle inside.
2.
The
flight was on time, unlike the previous week when it was said to delay for 5
hours!
3.
The
transit in Bali did not take much time; unlike when we just came.
4.
After taking out our luggage, I saw that the
queue for cabs was way too long. That wasn’t good, I thought, so decided to run
to the bus line and whoop! There the Pasar Minggu bus came first, first, like
never before..so I jumped in.
5.
Fortunately,
it was around 4 pm, and whoa, no traffic jam on the way! So I arrived at home
when day was still bright.
6.
I
took an ojek from the last stop to my place, and when the ojek stopped, he said
‘alhamdulilah’ for the very short trip, and said thank you and again ‘alhamdulilah’
because I said he can take the change. I could not stop myself from mumbling,
following him to say ‘alhamdulilah’, or thanks God (whichever language my mind
can speak to God who understands all languages I suppose). If he was able to
say thank you for the IDR 10,000 that I paid him, what more should I do other
than give thousand thanks for the abundant blessings God has given to me?
7.
I
put all the luggage in my room and soon got to get the public transport to the
pharmacy, and guess what, no traffic in the street! The street is well-known as
‘jalur neraka’ or ‘hell’s lane’ due to its unstoppable congestion, day and
night, weekend or weekday. So again, I considered
myself lucky.
8.
I
took the medicines and returned to my place.
Against all odds, I believe that there’s an
invisible hand guided me, brought me there and made everything just all right
in time. Knowing that, I’m glad that I’m not alone. That the Divine Being is
always be there for me, for the good cause that He intended me to do. Ever since
the world began.
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