Octobers nightmares

I can hardly recall any good things took place in Octobers of my life.

October 2003: devastating Am's statement
October 2007: dad passed away
October 2009: broke with As
October 2013: J's gone

If Green Day says 'wake me up when September ends', I'd like to add: and October too...wake me up when October ends. Wake me up from this cruel month when it ends...